Entries by J. Anasilan

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My Dreams

I can’t remember ever being asked what I wanted to do or become with my life. From my earliest days I only remember being told what’s expected of me. I see the church system as a place of walls; a prison where the inmates are given their instructions on how to survive the lockdown, how […]

Angels Everywhere

I’m placing my journal entry here tonight. These women seem to be all on a mission of some sort and I believe God has a reason I am encouraged and yet keep checking my soul desires too. I’m angry 400,000 churches gather every Sunday to worship God and teach God and we have 400,000 orphans […]

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Not afraid to Ask

God woke me at 3:25 am with a text from a flight attendant asking me to switch my maui trip for her standbye next week. I thought for a moment, “Is this a joke? Is she crazy?” And God said to me, “She’s not afraid to ask.” And that hit me hard. Yesterday was a […]

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From Trouble to Treading Upon

Last night I watched videos by Steve Harvey and he spoke of visions from the Lord, suggesting to his audience to read Hebakkuk 2. As I woke this morning, I ordered a devotional he recommended called “Jesus Calling” and then went to this scripture he spoke of. The first thing I noticed as peculiar was […]

Seaside, Steve & Son

God thank you for the hope in the 3 bedroom apartment by the ocean at Will Rogers. I didn’t get to see it because the door was locked and i know that only you can open doors so I trust there was a reason for this. I went to the ocean and had pep in […]

FREE WILL

I feel like I came here to California and have been on this crazy journey that began in 2016 when my life was turned upside down just to learn a lesson about free will. No matter what we do, how much we sacrifice or how deeply we love another, they may never love us back. […]