I feel it all ending. I’m not sure what it is but it’s not in my control. Perhaps the very root of suffering is found in trying to be in control. Maybe I shouldn’t want to know what happens next because trying to collect clues and crack the code causes expectation and disappointment.
I just returned from Florida in visiting my daughter for a few days. I had a call with Jason from Texas there on Wednesday and he once again brought up the idea of me moving back to Houston. I don’t want to say yes or no. I don’t want to control anything. But God knows if I could truly have what my heart desires, the man would offer me a great opportunity to stay here in California, Dave would show up on my doorstep with roses and apologize and confess his love for me and I’d know that I’m not crazy. That all of these dreams, visions and messages I’ve been chasing since 2019 are purposed and that my Angels were guiding me and my Heavenly Father was preparing me to receive new love and a new life with hope and a future.
But all I have tonight is silence and a “wait until Wednesday” message from Texas. I place my fate, my heart and my life in God’s hands and ask him to carry me where I’ll be ok. I ask him to restore my faith and let me be safe and loved somewhere on this earth again. He knows the future I don’t. He knows what’s best for me I don’t. He knows and I’ve tried so hard to hear him and to see his plans and I just don’t have an answer anymore.
This video was very hard to make. I can’t even watch it back without balling crying. I know it’s the voice of defeat and I don’t do this. I don’t give up. I don’t back down and I don’t quit on people I love or dreams I believe in. But Lord knows I’m exhausted. I don’t know what else to do other than throw my hands in the air and surrender. I need God to take over and do whatever HIS WILL is for my life now. I don’t want to fight anymore or run against the wind or try for anything that’s not meant to be in my life. I surrender. I surrender. I surrender. And I pray for a miracle in whatever way is my highest and best good now.
If this guy calls Wednesday and says I have to move to Texas in order to stop flying and have a home again then I’m going to Texas. So I’m praying for the Holy Spirit to protect my path and to BLOCK the offer if it’s not God’s will and to make it abundant and impossible to pass up if it is God’s will. And if God sends me back to Texas I have to know that the book of Skyla wasn’t his plan and I have to let all of this go.
Tonight I lay down the pen because I don’t see any other way to move forward anymore. I will trust that whatever comes my way it’s God’s plan because I don’t ask for my own plan anympr
This was a long rant and recollection with a series of prayers that went unanswered on the following day as CJ’s son missed her flight. But it’s also a coming back moment to the purpose and storyline of Remember Skyla. CJ realizes that she’s at the place in the prophecy where she finds the new chapter to her life written by someone other than herself. She sees that her entire life up this point was built on struggle, heartbreak, trying her hardest and wishing for change that she tried to create by the work of her own hands. Now she must become the reader and receiver. Now she’s in the part where she finds this script from the author of LOVE who has included her as a character in his tomorrow. She gets to open up each word as a present and a moment of surprise and she doesn’t get to know what happens next. That’s the beauty of it all – she’s no longer in control. So she lets go.. she looks at the pages and she’s excited to see what happens next as the author reveals his masterful work in the rewriting of her second chapter of life.
The son returns after she collects sand for her new prayer box and joins hearts with her daughter.
This episode covers miracles, prayers answered and more trials in the month of June and into July for CJ who wrote the book about Skyla that’s buried in the sand as a prophecy of what would come of her life. CJ visits her daughter, they pray together and CJ collects sand for her prayer box after the story of the woman in the bible caught in adultery who has her story rewritten by Jesus Christ as they all leave her and condemn her no more. CJ returns to California to receive a shocking phone call at 2am from her son. He left Texas and drove straight to California. A mortgage man took her son in and have him a couch to sleep on. Meanwhile he wanted something from CJ in return – her talent, her creativity and her writing skills. He offered to pay her, made a deposit of $2,500 and then refused to complete the payment once her hours were calculated and the contracted work was completed. CJ’s son moved into the basement – gym room at her roomate’s place in LA. But everything went wrong for her son there. His income source wouldn’t work in door dash, he got his car towed on Independence Day and was very down. CJ’s daughter visited in July to encourage him and as soon as she left, he left too. Tamra called CJ on her trip to let her know the news that her son was gone. He’d packed up his things and went back to the mortgage man’s house, (her sworn enemy). As a turning of unforeseen events, CJ was left with no choice but to let go and let God. She writes from New Orleans on July 13th and receives an epiphany after the script is completed over the Hollywood sign that was burnt out on the night of the supermoon. She wondered if God was saying in this that HE was now writing the stories – not mankind. And that he had chosen CJ to be obedient in telling the truth and the whole truth of all that was onfolding in her reality. It’s not easy for a writer to get rid of the desire to wish for happy endngs and fluffy feel-good messages, especially when the script is speaking of her own real life. But CJ realizes that this muddy, tragic, and trial-stricken path she was walking was not her own creation to decipher. She must walk with faith and write the good, bad and ugly – overcoming her emotions as they are temporary. God is in this story. She knows it. She speaks it. She reports what happens.
CJ prepares to leave Miami, recollecting pivotal moments in Southern Florida, strange dreams of past lives with the man in California, her sessions with hypnotherapist Dr. Anne Marie and the elderly couple who told her that a fated meeting with a man they called her “twin soul” was in store for her in the next year. Remembering the feeling of when she died, met with the Council and keepers of the Akashic Records and was brought back to life in 1995, her anticipation builds…
After CJ created a film deck and submitted it to a Hollywood producer for her book to be considered as a film last November, she never heard from the man again, causing her to lose hope in the project. Then months later in March, she found out her company was moving her to LA. In April CJ then received a call from a script writer she’d met on a plane from LAX to Miami back in February. Over the next 2 weeks a strange turning of events connected CJ and the script writer in a plan to move in together as roomates – relighting CJ’s flame in the possibility of the prophecy tied to the lost book of Skyla.
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