The Lord will Fight for you IF

I was closing my computer and saw this pop up (images from 2022) that I saw and took photos of while showing a home to my mom for sale. They spoke to me then and they speak loud to me now.

Just as the angel FURY taught me in 2020 when he spoke of the 3 dark spirits I needed to be aware of: Victimhood, blame & expectation, I see the same story in this scripture:

The Lord will fight for you IF you will only be still. Exodus 14:14

Everytime I feel wronged (victimhood) that leads to the desire to blame and put my expectations on others and I’ve seen this a reoccurring theme in how people close to me have treated me. I’m learning each day over and again to lay my burdens down before God and the attacks of these as well – to ask God to defend me, to ask God to perform and take the expectations of performance off of me and to ask God to cause others to not play victim to me in order to persuade and likewise to to take the anger and heartbreak off of me too when I feel shorted or not seen or heard or cared for by humans.

Each time I put expectations on Dave for example and feel like he’s not showing me love or doing the things I need him to do, he will attack me. Then I feel like the victim looking at all I’ve done and sacrificed to love him and I even feel angry that God would let that man in my life and allow me to move to Cali and give so much of myself in loving this man. And everytime I leave it alone, let it be and give it to God, that man comes right back. I feel like God does all things to make peace, fix our relationships and convict the hearts of others and us too when we don’t fight and just ask God to fight for us. FURY takes care of it as our defender and Jesus writes in the sand to convict hearts.

The other message falls in line also with Jesus the author and prince of faith as it says, I am putting all things into place – God. We can’t see what he’s doing and I certainly have been trying to figure it all out for years. But he promises that he’s doing it. There will be a day I know when I see it all say, “oh!!!! wow!! You did all things perfectly for this outcome.”

The other night on the drive home I was nervous to see Tamra and I didn’t know why. I just had a bad feeling – she’d been kind of nasty to me and in a bad mood and taking out her stress it seems on me. And as soon as I walked in she confronted me as if I were a child for burning a pot. I snapped and defended myself and then I felt horrible and cried myself to sleep.

I realize right now it was a test. I should’ve prayed for God to send Fury to defend me and kept my mouth shut.

Either way I prayed and I keep praying. I hope I will soon be in the habit of hearing God’s voice in all moments of my life and never wondering what he’s doing or if he’s fighting for me or if he’s putting all the puzzle pieces into place. I’ll know. I’ll know without every wondering again. I’ve been there before but the moments were brief seasons.

OK, I’m going to sleep. I pray the usual – protect me and my children and my dog and lead us to the doorway of Glory each moment that leads to the promise and fulfillment of our hearts greatest desires.

In Jesus name – Amen.